Almost, but not quite...

I know you're probably reading this. Even though we didn't end up together, I just want you to know that you were almost there, you just didn't take a step further.

You're not alone. Millennials as we are, I bet you're still familiar with GMs (group messages). This is somehow like that. It's a message to y'all whom I thought was on board the same boat as I had, but when I looked back, you actually missed hopping on it. And it was too late when we both realized that we're not treading the path together, at the same time. It's either you were busy living your life comfortably thinking that I'd still be there even without any commitment, or I was expecting too much just because I've been ready for something beyond, for so long.

Is it me who was in a rush, thus you couldn't take a leap?

Did I overwhelm you with demands you never thought you'll encounter sooner, rather than later?

Was I too straightforward of the things I desire for myself, so you felt burdened and pressured?

Or maybe, your cowardice got the best out of you?

Were you just not ready to express your affection further?

Did you not know how to get out of your way to pursue me, us?

Regardless of your reasons, I also made my choice. I'm not the type to force myself on someone who obviously couldn't see my worth. Whether or not you realized it later that "us" was worth giving a shot, I chose myself. This choice that I'll do, always, moving forward.

I didn't spend the past two years of rebuilding and rediscovering myself just to lose it again in the process. Now, more than ever, I believe that choosing one's self isn't something we should feel guilty about. Because at the end of the day, remember that we can't give what we don't have. So, if we lack the respect and love for our own selves, how can we give or share them to other people?

Also, you know what? Choosing yourself isn't equated to being alone all your life. You can choose yourself while also embracing the sincere love being given to you either by your family, friends, or that person who comes to your mind while reading this (whoever he or she is).

In my case, I'll keep choosing myself who I know deserves nothing less. I won't settle for someone who's half-hearted and uncertain of how he'll make things work for us. Though I'm no longer associating happiness to having that special someone, I'm still not closing my doors when the right one comes along.

So, if we somehow didn't have the proper parting of ways, let me do it here.

Thank you, still, for reminding me how it felt to be giddy with your usual admiration of me.

Thank you for taking your time knowing my story, listening to my worries, and uplifting my mood when needed.

Thank you for giving everything that you were willing to offer, even though it wasn't enough for you to actually take a chance on me.

It has been good while it lasted. For what it's worth, I sincerely hope for good things (and people) to come your way.

This is me, letting the us-we-almost-had, go.